Disheartened

Who knew it would be so hard to get a friend , just to think I have put myself out here for the world to see. I've yet to find someone that would be interested enough to follow me on my journey all that I request is someone that would talk to me from time to time to help me to keep my spirits up. I wouldn't think that would be asking to much of someone, are we really a people who care more about our selves, then someone else, I don't believe that because I hear to many stories of people helping other people who are strangers. I ask where is my stranger I know I have to have one he/she is somewhere out there, know that I am waiting to hear from you. My journey is lonely right now I could really use a friend to help me to stay encouraged.

My last post has been a few days, if I didn't know any better I would say that I am giving up, however we know that not to be true, because we have made a commitment and said that we are not giving up on this goal that we need to achieve. I say we because I am looking forward to others coming along with my on my journey. I have not given up on that happening as well it seems that this is just not happening as quickly as I may have hoped for. Like they say good things comes to those who wait, so I am waiting for my good things to pour in.
I have to say today is not really a happy day for me, because the summer time has ended for my granddaughter and myself. I took her yesterday to her dad so that they could take her back home today, I was OK up until she called me made me what to cry, still trying not to cry, going to really miss her.

I'm not giving up

I am saying I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up, I'm not giving up. I'm going to make a fortune, I'm going to make a fortune, I'm going to make a fortune, I'm going to make a fortune. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you

Today

Okay, today is one of those days when I feel like throwing in the towel, those days do not make me smile. However, the thing that do keep me smiling is my granddaughter, we have had a wonderful summer together. However, I have to think about the fact that our time together is almost up, she will be going back to her other grandmother and her siblings. But I know that we will always cherish our time together, it has been great having her here with me. I believe that while she was here that she had a growth spree, she is really growing up into a young lady fast. I feel blessed that we have a very special bond and relationship as grandmom and granddaughter that no one can take away. Well I am beginning to think that I am just rambling now so I will stop talking for now.

Today

I have gotten a little side tracked today doing other things before doing my blog, not only that I have been wondering if I what to write anything today. Well I guess I have answered that question because as you can tell I am writing something. Well this week I have been reading this book called Soul Communication, I have found this book to be interesting I do have some questions about some of the things that the author suggest that we do. I look forward to my next meet up with Listen to your Life, I am sure this group can help me with my questions. Until then I will continue to read book and take notes to help me to understand. As for the business I am still working at it, great things will happen soon.

Fear, afraid

You ever wake up in the morning you are afraid, you have this fear and then you think about the fact that you haven't even put your feet on the floor yet. You know what that is about right, as they say fear of the unknown the fact that once you get up and out around people you don't know what the day will bring. But you know what that is ok because what you do is you get up and let the day began and know that it is going to be a wonderful day and wonderful things will happen today and everyday. Today I push fear aside I'm going outside to meet new people, I look forward to those new people that I meet today and days to come turning out to be new friends. No new news about the business, but you know what they say no news is good news, that is not a phase that I really like but I have learned to live with that phase.

Day 8

Today I awake to another day of what will happen today. I received a phone call informing me that he is going to work on my list of names today. The best that I can do is to put it in the hands of the good Lord up above, let his will be done, that is what I have to accept his will. I just pray that his will and my will are the same, will let you know soon.

Day 7

This is day 7 I must say that I am feeling really human today, the reason I say that is because I am disappointed that nothing has happened yet. However over the weekend I read Lesser, Broken Open, it was very eye opening to me, especially now knowing that I am not the only person that hears the drums that I hear. Most of my life I thought that I was the only one that could hear the beat of the drums that I danced to. Now I know that through out my life my way of handling life situations was not off track, I now even understand more why my reactions are as they were. Always learning to turn what most people would perceive as a bad thing into a lesson to learn from, and knowing that you have the choice of whether to make it a negative or a positive lesson learned. I believe me having that attitude is what drove me to go back to school to get my Masters degree so that I could help others on a different level. Now I am in the process of learning a new lesson of allowing myself to know that it is OK to have money, and get the things that you deserve out of life. I've known for a long time that we are our own worst enemy because we are afraid of succeeding in life, my goal is to put that fear aside to allow the success to come and embrace success with open arms.